How much strength does it take to stand up when the world is crushing you?

It takes great courage to stand up to your enemies, but more courage still to stand up to your friends (no prizes guessing where this came from).

I thought I was going to fail this trial for sure, but it looks like I might pass. Now here's the question:

Can I pass this trial without compromising on what I treasure, all that I deem important to me? Or will I have to live yet another long segment of my life, seeing faces that I love to see, wearing the expressions that I fear to see, that say I am not what they want to see?

Thing is, We have a pact... He and I, we have a pact. He's always kept His end, no matter how many times I've broken my end. His only condition: try. Not even "Do". Just "Try".

How many more times am I going to break my word?

And I'm not even sure I can pass this trial.